An apology

I’m sorry that I assumed

I took precedence

over drunken parties,

extracurriculars,

and other trivialities.

I’m sorry that I thought

that your new affiliation

would teach you

to be more compassionate.

I’m sorry that I was too self-centered

to think that perhaps

you were too preoccupied

with other matters of life,

such as get-togethers,

that you could not even

leave a mere sentence

to explain what went wrong.

I’m sorry that I expected

a certain depth from a friendship

that was meant to be

sugarcoated and superficial,

wrapped in a special kind of bubblewrap,

to be kept away

from criticism and conflict.

I’m sorry that I failed

to hide my disappointment (albeit angrily)

when I realized

that you could not even spare me

a minute of your time

to console and comfort me

in my moment of need.

I’m sorry that all I ever asked for

was sympathy

from the very few people

I thought I could trust.

Stephanie & Fernandina

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Last Sunday, I was able to convince two of my sisters to model for me so I could practice taking pictures and putting on makeup. :)

I think Stephanie, in particular, looks a lot like my mom. One of her poses for this shoot actually reminds me of a certain photo of my mom, taken back during her modeling days! :D

P.S. They’re only aged 15 and 12, respectively, but friends and family have repeatedly remarked how they look so grown up now!

July 12

My friends and I decided to go on a date last July 12 for our 8th anniversary. We met up at EDSA Shangri-La. Working girl!Jeanne decided to treat everyone with rice platters from Pepper Lunch (my first time there, lol).

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The reason we actually decided to meet up at Shangri-La was because of my suggestion to go see one of the films for Eiga Sai (having attended a few years ago). But lo and behold, when we arrived at Shang Cineplex at around 3:15 PM, there were already four winding lines… and the film they were lining up for was supposed to be showing at 4:30 PM. We ended up not being able to watch after lining up for more than an hour (I seriously can’t imagine how early the ones in the first line arrived—they must have been waiting for ages). I wouldn’t have been disappointed though if the management just clearly told people that they wouldn’t be able to watch (via a systematic way of organizing lines/doing headcounts) instead of making them wait for nothing. Fortunately though, the experience didn’t dampen my friends’ spirits and off we went, snacks in hand, to find a place where we could chat and catch up with each other’s lives. :)

We later crossed over to Megamall and spent a considerable amount of time at the makeup section of the department store (also my suggestion lol) before having dinner. My friends forced me to take home the leftovers due to their genuine concern for my stick-thin arms, err… my health, lol.

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Last photo taken from my best friend, Ashley Garcia’s Instagram account

Nothing beats friends who maintain their friendship despite time and distance. My friends have proven time and time again that you don’t need to stick like glue in order to be friends. It’s not being inseparable or hanging out with someone everyday that makes friendships. It’s being there for someone (not necessarily physically) no matter how different your worlds become—a friendship where meeting up with old friends feels like coming back home. :)

Happy 8th anniversary to us, Otax! I love you, my lovelies! <3 

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I practiced putting on makeup earlier, experimenting on a dark eye look since my sister wanted me to recreate one on her. So here I am, the eternal guinea pig! Hahaha. Yay or nay?

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Gifts I received recently! The eyeshadow/lip palettes are from my aunt while the lipstick is from Ms. Noemi Gomez, who I got to work with on the recently concluded The Missing Peace. :) I hope I can put these to good use! :D

Gifts I received recently! The eyeshadow/lip palettes are from my aunt while the lipstick is from Ms. Noemi Gomez, who I got to work with on the recently concluded The Missing Peace. :) I hope I can put these to good use! :D